Profile of an American Legend

I cross posted this in several communites I am a member of. I believe I am friends with a former Java developer and there is someone who was learning PHP if I remember correctly?

I used to code frequently as a hobby in a variety of programming languages and did computer support work professionally until a couple of years ago.

Alot of things have changed since then such as the introduction of AJAX and web applications, dynamic websites, flash and silver light.

I am finishing up college and will be graduating late this spring. I am thinking of programming again and I am considering trying out software and web programming as a possible career option when I graduate.

I am facing several delimas.


My question is what languages and skills should I learn? Are any employers reading this? What are your guidelines in hiring new programmers?

I am a business major and not a computer science major and I wonder if I should focus on web development where the requirement for a computer science degree is not as high. I have several college level books on c# and Java. Which would be wise for someone starting out?

My wife is sick and has been home for a few days. Poor thing came off bad reactions to medications and it looks like she has the flu. So far she took off Monday and today as well.

We have gone through alot this past month as our lives have been hectic with me taking 18 units at college so I can graduate quicker as well as her traveling a million miles to palm springs everday and back as well as completing her master's program.

Its been great since she has been home. I feel bad for her when she is sick and very very tired but I love cuddling with her and watching her sleep. There is something about her when she sleeps that kind of makes me feel very affectionate. I just think about how lucky it is that I found her and how great she is putting up with all we went through. We both changed our meds and are scheduling time for each other. I feel so much closer together since she is home and its a bumb we have to work. I would love to spend all our time together at home. I guess I can view that as an incentive for retirement if we work hard now.

She is an awesome woman and I had no idea what I have been missing before I found her. I feel so happy and loved right. When I get my degree I can finally make time with her.

I believe out there that there is someone for everyone. You need to look hard and realize if the person you are with is Mr or Mrs right or not. With us we know.

I am going to do some more homework and hopefully she will be awake later on. hehe

... oh we are going to Florida this Christmas. It will be weird to go to the old house after all the hell I went through so long ago and we are seeing Heather. Heather is really cool and one of hte only friends I had when I was in Florida.

I have always had a funny relationship with medications. I typically do not like them. I believe this started out of fustration with having a magic little pill to solve my problems when I was a teenager. I had nightmares, erect ... you get the idea, anxiety, mood swings, insomia, etc with the different meds I have tried from prozac, to adderall.

I eventually stopped taking them. Well my life no longer sucks as much as it did when I lived in Florida so I cut off my anti depressent medication. Slowly but surely things are looking up in these challenging times.

Now comes 18 units of college and an accounting program from hell! I think only aaron on my friendslist here and one other person even passed the midterm. Its just too much and I can not memorize nor do I have the capability to do the +25 pages of homework every week in the course.

My doctor put me on Wellubutrin a month ago. Nice ... it is not a dangerous drug compared to something like adderall or prozac. It keeps me awake, helps me focus, and has a nice benefit with my sex drive. Anne tried it too and she had good results and they are immediate unlike other anti depresents. I recommend anyone to try them if they are having issues with intimacy, attention span, or depression.

However I have become restless and irratible. I focus but on the wrong things as my add/adhd kicks in. I told the doctor I have add but he thinks I may have adhd and was missdiagnosed. I just started wellubutrin/Stratera combo yesterday. Wow! I can have attention span now with my focus. Unfortunately it gets in the way of intimacy and makes me tired but I need to finish my homeowrk for all 18 units and I can't work like a machine for 6 hours straight of just homework.

I will see if this works as I will be doing fun and exciting accounting homework and maybe my marketing proposal if I have time later today.

I was glad to bury the POS mobile when I left Florida 2 years ago.

Now my wife's Kia is begining to fullfil the new POS 2. It only has 65k miles on it hower ...

The car needs new struts, alternator and timing belts, a/c freon shot, tuneup, fuel filter, and other issues. annelp's first pay check does not come in until the end of September. We recently put in new bake prads, tires, and had a re-allignment.

The car has been making strong squeling noises during first gear to second gear which I fear is a broken transmission and now the engine light came on. Very not cool. I googled the symptoms and it appears to be either a transmission problem or a loose timing belt.

The timing belt supposed to be replaced 10k miles ago and will wreck the engine if it comes off. ... not that I had a similiar problem with the POS mobile in Las Vegas or anything.



I can't work this year since the school district screwed my kids over and wont bus them to a local school and I am taking 18 units these last 2 semesters. I find this kind of amusing which is messed up but it looks like I am going to have to ask Dad for money if its a big repair job. A month without pay sucks and we wont have money for groceries if its too expensive. I am hoping it will be nothing but this Kia needs some serious work.

POS car song.

I found the music video that I included to be quite appropriate and hysterical ... especially for those who had bad cars throughout their lifetime.

Posted in the wow community

I maxed out my mage at level 70 and I decided to start a new toon as a rogue.

Here is my character right now.

I have talent points all over and I want to rearrange them and specialize. I use all 3 as I am just learning on what I can do. I have viscerate in assination maxed, sinister strike maxed in combat, have 2 out of 5 with avoiding detection in subtle, and have a few points in backstab.

What talent points would be most usefull in pvp? Which are more usefull in leveling? Or is a hybrid a good idea where I am a master of none.

Its fustrating that I have to chose between finishing moves in assination or combat.

Basically I wrote this in the Sean Hannity in response to a former democrat who switched to becoming a conservative republican.

I am in the same boat.

I am still actually a registered democrat in the state of Florida and live in California currently and about to register as a republican.

My family is hard core liberal. I was raised by a mom who admires Jimmy Carter and was told as a child the evils of Ronald Reagan and Reaganomics and how the whole world will end seen unless we have someone like Clinton in office … bla bla bla.

My views changed when I began to take economics courses. I defended liberal marginal prosperity to consume argument but statistics have shown Reagan is what built the economy to where it is today where growth and personal ambition to move up the ladder.

After being disappointed after the democrats took both houses in 2006 and AM radio I turned conservative.

I believe in the free market. My views of government spending improving the lives of people has gone away. I think privatization of non public good functions is a good thing. Free trade will bring prosperity to Americans and foreigners who live in third world countries. I wish government paperwork and regulations would vanish. Most of all after working for the government it convinced me that I want to be a republican. This is the school system. It makes me angry how the administrators are all unaccountable yet my wife is. Most of the money goes to free cars $200,000 packages for the superintendents and meanwhile they are laying off teachers.

In the private sector this problem wont exist as VP's and CEO's would fire them in a heartbeat.

I would miss my friends who are liberal and even my wife is disappointed in me as she leans democrat 60/40. I know my post is shocking to some of my lj colleagues (if any actually read this anymore?). syrenne I added because she was a liberal activist and I know my wife annelp leans left and like how I was liberal when I met her. trusunn is a big barack supporter.

Well This is how I feel and what I believe I am called to do. Its funny that CBU and the University of Dallas where I am going to get my MBA are the most conservative colleges in the country. I want to work for mortgage or hedge fund companies after I graduate. The ones in Dallas are heavily involved in the republican party. It does not make sense for me to remain a democrat. However Clinton was not necessarily too bad but I do not want another Jimmy Carter or President Johnson in the Whitehorse which is what Barack is increasingly looking like.

The poor are pretty screwed and I encourage limited programs to help them. Not welfare but things like financial aide for college. People make mistakes and 6 out of 10 poor people believe they got themselves there. Ouch, sorry but learn your lesson.

Growing up and being responsible with annelp is what convinced me to become conservative. Being liberal and relying on everyone did not bring me out of my hole I lived by before 2006. I do not believe I am gullable on this for listening to Sean Hannity and others on the radio. Economics and my complete disdain for the failure of this 2006 democratic takeover reminds me of how republicans swept in 1994. THey are incompentent and filled with great ideals and are caring. But helping big bussiness is the only way to help others.

In California
The state increased government funding by 40% and created a huge defecit. Did we see things improve? No. We have the highest 10% tax rate for businesses in the country and the Terminator wants to raise it to %12. Toyota closed its plant in Northern California and moved to Mississippi and many law firms are moving to Las Vegas with 0% tax. My god they are costing jobs to fund these useless programs.



In a nutshell

I believe equal opportunity for everyone in the race of life. However I believe in economic distortions to force everyone to finish at the same time. Schools need to offer the same assistance in honors programs for those that qualify or have them buses out to compete. Not more funding. This will help those in inner cities get into college by hard work and help themselves later in life.

THis is why I am becoming a registered republican.

I had a funny dream last night where there were tiny scorpions here in California. They were in the house and between Anne and myself but were too tiny to see and could sting if I was not careful with walking to her.

Over the past week I had dreams of myself comparing California to other places we want to move too or places I have lived. California was a bare desert in that dream while the coldness and green of Chicago/northwestern Indiana was in that as well. The dryness and bareness of California was coming into my childhood home. Maybe I am thinking the climates of aplace were I move might not be that bad? Either way my dreams of California are becoming more negative.

I think in my most current dream that scorpions were not in Florida and Texas but were all over the place in California.

I believe in the power of psychic dreams. I had a dream of a bomb going off and so did my wife a few months before we were laid off. Something is up and below I decided to put down symbols of my dreams to try to figure out what the interpretation is.

Scorpion

Dreaming about a scorpion may be symbolic of something in your environment which is hurtful, dangerous, and "stinging." It may represent bitter words and very negative attitudes. Superstition based dream interpretation books say that a scorpion may constitute a warning. It further states that if the scorpion in your dream bit you, you will overcome your problems. However, if you killed the scorpion, be exceptionally careful around people that are not your friends, or are false friends. Some believe that the scorpion is a symbol of transformation.


also

Scorpion

* To dream of a scorpion, foretells that false friends will improve opportunities to undermine your prosperity. If you fail to kill it, you will suffer loss from an enemy's attack.

... and last but not least

Scorpion

To see a scorpion in your dream, represents a situation in your waking life which may have been painful or hurtful. It is also indicative of destructive feelings, "stinging" remarks, bitter words and/or negative thoughts being expressed by or aimed against you. Your dream forewarns of a self-destructive and self-defeating path. The scorpion is also a symbol of death and rebirth. You need to get rid of the old and make room for something new. Alternatively, the scorpion may also represent a person who is born under the astrological sign for Scorpio.

To see scorpions floating in water, suggests that you need to let go of some pain and learn to accept the situation. You may be going through the three-step process of denial, acceptance, and finally moving on.


Wow

Here is desert and cats that were also in my dreams.

Desert
To dream that you are walking through a desert, signifies loss and misfortune. You may be suffering from an attack on your reputation. Deserts are also symbolic of barrenness, loneliness and feelings of isolation and hopelessness.

Cat
To see a cat in your dream, signifies much misfortune, treachery, and bad luck. However, for the cat lover, cats signifies an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power. If the cat is aggressive, then it suggests that you are having problems with the feminine aspect of yourself. If a cat is biting you, then it symbolizes the devouring female. Perhaps you are taking and taking without giving. You may be expressing some fear or frustration especially when something is not going as planned. If you see a cat with no tail, then it signifies a lost of independence and lack of autonomy.


I occasionally have a bad dream or two but never for a whole week of strange symbols. I did have a devasting month in July that have not been good.

I give up on Linux yet again... sigh.

MS Office expired and I need to pony up a few $$$ for it. I decided to try to ditch windows and have my own destkop environment that was free and prettier than the ugly vista blacks.

I am sick and tired of using Microsoft Windows. Microsoft is an evil monopoly which is holding computer users back with proprietary standards and forcing expensive upgrades in both versions of windows and office which I have to say are the shittiest most attrouches products ever developed.


... ok Windows somewhat works now and MS Office is better with the ribbons in version 12 but its formatting is still behind Word Perfect for Dos 5.1.

Why are we still using this garbage? ITs because everyone else uses it and MS arm twists our computer manufactors because we have to use windows and office to co exist with others in exchanging data and running games. Sigh.


Linux was great! It gets really close to be being a full desktop alternative to Windows .. then the quality goes down with each release as they play catch up. My wifi card is barely working and does strange things ... oh its my fault for not buying the right hardware according to some linux die hards on slashdot.org (whatever). Oh and my mouse no longer works and it worked fine in earlier versions of Ubuntu Linux. I wont even mention the horrors of having my system hosed just for doing an apt-get install Kdesktop4 so I could play around with the other desktop environment.

I tried FreeBSD unix and I like it alot. Infact it would run quite well on this desktop and it powers www.yahoo.com, apache.org, www.hotmail.com, and other high profile websites. Its for servers and it would be a nightmare trying to get Java software, desktops, mp3, and other things normal users would use. Maybe if I ran a website I would use FreeBSD like I did on my destkop for years but I give up.

I have no class or work this week so I have time to fiddle.

Most of the excellent software that is free from Unix and Linux is now avaible on Windows such as Perl, Python, The Gimp, and even php/apache for web development. I do not have to be tied to expensive Windows apps ... maybe office but I am giving OpenOffice another shot because I need to save money.

I wish we had real comptition besides from Apple. Monopolies are not free market economies

I left Ubuntu about a year and used automatix for clear type fonts, mp3 support, java2sdk, and other nifty utilities including the ability to use ctrl + alt + del to launch gtop.

My AMD notebook is finally somewhat supported so I gave 8.04 a shot. This is painful to search for each codec and I noticed that ubuntu 8.04 defaults to opensource community repositories which are unstable and hosed my system much to my irration.

Anyway is Automatix gone now? What else can I use to find these great programs all located in a single place?

Make love not warcraft.

So in a nutshell my dad and I were mad at my boss from Donna Karen.

I acted weird and had trouble giving eye contact with other coworkers. My exboss told me to never to work in customer service again and sorry but I had to fire you before his own job was on the line and it was nothing personal.

The coming years 2001 - 2007

The internet job market went to shit. Everyone was getting pink slips. I was so close to finding an apartment and becoming a man and it fell so far far away. I became terrible depressed and felt like the biggest loser on the planet. Frankly I was in some ways and my parents did not teach me the lesson of not pouting like a child ( Anne did :-) ).

I went on therapy and received only 1 job offer. I turned it down because the guy at CreditSwiss First Boston was a prick and told me he runs people out and he wants things done YESTERDAY. I was so psychologically devastated that I told him I had another job interview and walked out in the cold rainy day. :-(

My Mom and I fought and her ramblings about her son being retarded because he can't hold on to job pissed me off. My psychologist told me I was the most pathetic thing he has ever seen and was a thief as long as I didn't work taking money from my parents and in return showing no responsibility for my actions. He was mad after several months of unemployment and so was I.

Staples
I just wanted a job and my career was over. Face it I had a poor work ethic, was immature, greedy and self centered, and thought I was too good for these kinds of jobs. But being someone in their 20's at home who didn't even have a job seemed like a worse prospect. How low can I go?

9-11 happened and that made me even more resilient to work ANYWHERE. I didn't want to go like this. Imagine answering to God himself about my life and I had nothing to show other than I was incapable of keeping a job and refused to work. Ouch! After returning back to New York Staples gave me a chance and THANK GOD. I had a job and was going to decide what to do next from there.

However they did not pay me enough to move out. :-( BUt I at least tried and that was good enough for my family for now.

I worked there until 2002/2003.

back to school 2003 - 2005

After a bunch of crummy jobs. I decided to stick to my dream of finishing school. I am not good at manual labor due to my disability. I needed a job where I can use my head.

I met Ria who helped me establish my faith in relationships and was a friend when I needed one. She was not interested in a relationship but my god I found someone who finally wanted to talk to me! Ok maybe I could at least not be alone in this very cruel world. After pressuring her we had an online relationship. I felt she needed someone too and LJ became a very HUGE part of my life too.

School was going good with mixed results but mostly everything was flowing smoothly. I made a job at Busch Gardens, getting mostly B's, and was on a path... a long one but at least I was moving on the road of life and trying.

2005/2006 - this week

Schools was going forward but problems began to arrise. I could not handle the job at AOL and had to go back to BG. :-(

Ria and I were having problems and I was tired of online relationships and so was she. I was tempted to cheat and so was she because I needed more than a long distance relationship could offer. I flirted with several women including 2 from livejournal. (Dont worry I wont say names).

I looked at myself and was now in my late 20's and still thought about the days of working with computers and wondered if I would ever do that kind of work again? I withdrew from alot of things.

Ria was still in love with another woman from a different part of the country and I switched to just friends mode with her in order to protect myself. She discovered other women and Anne told Ria was with a guy that I did not even know about? ... shrugs shoulders.

Change was up in the air this year.

I could not finish my associates degree by 2006. I just was burned too badly. I met a new woman online named Anne (my wife). I felt I had hope for the first time and I realized that I am older now. Middle aged and still at home?? :-( Is there any way out? Anne was married to someone else but we both became immediately attached to each other.

I dropped everything. I Dumped my exgf and Hillsborough college for a new direction which was very ballsy as I became fear avoidance due to learned helplessness. I called in sick a few times at work and became irresponsible again. What the hell? It was like I was too depressed to be responsible after I learned my lesson. But it was time to move on.

Maybe GOD felt I had reproven myself to be worthy to start over.

Anne and I became bf/gf and I moved right before I would receive my associates and told BG goodbye and left to California

California

I never called in sick at OfficeMax or Blizzard and only called in sick twice when I had exams/car issues and was really truly sick at Riverside Unified.

Anne reminded me that I should keep my own vows and not punish Riverside Unified for not managing my own time and just suffer the consequences. I messed up that one time but other than that I feel I have changed and grown up. She is right and I feel I have learned alot.

I wanted a career in academia maybe.

I took business courses and finally developed my personal ethics statement
1.) Always keep promises and fulfill your vows
2.) Its ok to say I do not know or no it can't be done at this time
3.) Better to say nothing at all if you are unsure about anything.
4.) Never call in sick as its a form of stealing if your salaried and not truly sick. Also a case of not fulfilling my vows
5.) Love your job or at least love that you still have one. You can set your eyes on something different later.
6.) He who can not be trusted with little can not even be trusted with lots. Likewise he who can not be trusted with lots can not even be trusted with little. - Jesus

#6 really got to me in bible classes. I could not be trusted to even take care of myself. Thats why bad things happened to me years earlier. It was up to me to be trusted with little so today I can be trusted with more.


Fast forward to bipolar week

I kept my vows on staying at Hyatt working with special ed kids (I job I hated) until the year was finished. I only called in sick once when I was really sick. My social skills were not the best but I never questioned the teacher.

Also I thanked god I had a job but was already setting my eye for the next big target.

I got the computer tech job

After this long and very painful journey I want to make sure I can keep my job! I will do whatever it takes and I lost 10 years of my life being irresponsible. Its catchup time at this point and time to rush the corporate ladder.

I am nervous due to my past that I exhaustively mentioned. Today I will try to keep my vows and will not engage any customers at all unless my boss approves of it. Infact its part of my job requirement. :-)

Yes I have tape backups but I have everything documented and will double clarify everything when its my turn over the phone. Yes I will bug my boss so my head does not roll.

I love my job and hope it turns into something of a career move. But wow have I come along way and I pray that I have learned my lessons. If not then I will pick a different career.

So I was fired from Hyatt for no reason citing possible budget cuts and the teacher didn't like me and then I was hired at this place 48 hours later.

Talk about a roller coaster.

Of course the term bipolar is quite common these days and is like the new in thing.


Recap

My last entry I questioned the meeting of life and why things do not work and then do and what the meaning was.

I got the job!

I just worked 50 hours last week at my dream job! Well almost and I am glad I do not work at Riverside Unified again. It was my wife's job but not mine.

However I understand the reason for my employment detour and I am extremely cautious.

The long history and why it makes me very conservative with my job today ....

History

Back in 1998 I made a decision to go into the computing field due to my love of computers and my hobby. It was easy to get an I.T. job back in those days. It was fun, didn't require a college degree, and you could make lots of money FAST. No worrying about politics are pointy haired bosses and I could do something that can help change the world. I was part of something important.

I could not work or legally go to school in Canada. After showing my father's friends what I know about computers I was encouraged to be certified in server usage. I was also told to study html as it was the future.

Big mistake #1

I laughed at the notion of html being (real) programming. I wanted alot of money and was under the impression worked sucked and was a way to ensalve people into doing things so they wont starve. Basically if you worked at a job you didn't like hten you were a whore because you were only doing it for the money

Talk about immaturity and niaveness.

Back in 1999

I completed all 7 exams and flunked only 1 in which I had to retake. No one really called me for an interview. No experience. :-(

My father got me a job at Liz Claiborne as an intern. I questioned my sexuality at hte time and didn't know if I wanted a boyfriend of girlfriend. I didn't date and was very ap[rehensive about anyone approaching me. I was still brainwashed with conservative christian ideology and was begging and desperately seeking to work. I wanted to move out so bad and become a man.

I met this guy from L.A. online on gay.com (dont remember his name). I wanted to go to some place warm again and was planning to move to California. I felt it was my dream to move away. His mom wanted me to meet me and he was cute.

I started the internship at Liz Claiborne. It was really cool and exciting minus the horrible 10/hr pay rate (which I would kill for just a few years later :-( ). I had one guy who was a tech who was showing me around and was a prick. He kept assuming I was not listening to him because I talk fast when I was nervous. My autism/aspergers was 10x worse than today. My wife doesn't believe me but she would be shocked with her jaw dropped if she could see me back then.

I am brutally honest and was mad that we were understaffed and things couldn't get done. I shared that with a few friends I made (very very unprofessional). Anyway she was cool and she wanted to set me up with a date with her intern named Wendy. I did not know how to handle it. Today I certainly would be able to do this as I learned my social behaviors. Also I figured chicks were not for me.

I became paranoid as I felt something was not quite right. My boss stopped asking me for help with things and he just wanted me to sit there and read. I wrote in www.zdnet.com that my name was IT slaveworker as a job title jokingly. I had no cluse my boss knew my handle name but he did and called on that. :-( Yep my job was in the crapper or at least I got paranoid and thought so. (rightfully so)

I had a coworker who was sexually harrasing another woman and bringing my name up saying I would do x to her. (And would get me fired if he didn't shut his mouth). There was a problem where they needed to filter data from an old IBM mainframe app and put it in an excel spreadsheet (dont remember details). I looked online for software that could do this but none existed. Then I had a brilliant idea of writing a perl object to regex in a C++ program! Perl is hard and I didn't understand it that well. I figured it just couldn't be done.

A month later I was informed that no more spring interns were needed for bugetary reasons. I was niave to think that is was just over. In actuality I think I was fired informerly. Reason being was
1.) Poor social skills
2,) Not taking my job seriously and not wanting to work weekings or work on that program
3.) Lack of judgemnet in posting on personal computers at work.

Steven told my father that I was a great guy but was a little too anxious and can get weird.
2000
I became more worried and angry about work after this. Donna Karen and Liz Claiborne had a strong relationship as they make each others clothes. I applied at Donna Karen and man was it a dump compared to Liz Claiborne. Horrible I.T.

I called in sick twice the first 2 months (wtf was I thinking!) and exhibited poor social interactions and the people there treated me poorly. I deserved it in alot of ways. No customer service skills and I was a tech. The guy who was my boss got in computers from repairing A/C units and just got his A+ computer repair certifications. He was expecting strong customer service above technical ability but hired me as I knew more than anyone else there. He paid 34,000 a year! Wahoo ... or so I thought.

I made inappropriate comments to secretaries looking at inappropriate websites. She asked I never come back. So the boss said ok I will fire him.

You know what? He should have!

I am ashamed of my wife reading this and myself from those days. I called in sick, expected the world to worship me because of my life with a dissability, and had terrible customer service skills. I did other things wrong too like download illegal music and blast heavy metal music with my feet back while working. What the hell was I thinking?? Yes other coworkers did that but that is a liability.

My boss asked me to resign and tried to fire me prompto right before 2 months. We agreed after I came in an hour early to fix the situation and at this point my anxiety was up through hte roof.

Unfortunately he was already documentating anything he could to get rid of my by the end of the third month and was told to switch mission critical tapes with $250,000 that were unlabeled. I think I was setup but oh well I deserved it.

End of part I

Has anyone ever heard of it?

I have heard of cosmo with its occasional incompatibilities and was thinking of using some mods. I need something with autoaim for hordes who are nearbye in pvp. I am partially color blind and can not tell the difference between the horde and alliance which SUCKS.

Anyone became infected with any keyloggers or spyware by using wowmatrix? What add-ons do you recommend

Cross posted to the worldofwarcraft

Found this in some strange community that I do not remember what it was

( Not work safe )

and for something worksafe.

http://www.break.com/index/office-worker-goes-absolutely-insane.html

Do not redo your resume after several drinks. Especially one where your interviewer gives you tips on how to fix it for the final interview.

Yes interview went well!

Have second tomorrow morning at 11. Wow!?

He almost gave up on me until I mentioned that the field of technology is continuously improving and changing and a good technician is one who is well kept and has the ability to learn. I have the ability to learn as demonstrated by my college grades and my A+ certification that I obtained by myself with no schooling.

Needless to say he had to go to school for 3 months to pass all 3 exams and I told him I did it in only 3 weeks.

It was embarrasing that he found faults with my resume and said it was crap. I didn't know what to do or how to respond. His boss wants the ms word elegant format which I can't stand and he found a period in one spot and said my formatting was too extensive.

Tomorrow is the big day and its amazing how believing in yourself for once can change things.

What a strange opposite world of 2004 and 2005 was compared to today?

Its that time again.

Oh, yes the summer.

High gas prices and electric bills for the A/C and kids bored looking for something to do.

.. and for me its time to look for work. I have 2 1/2 weeks left .. make that 2 weeks before I am let go for the year.

I am being evaluated for performance tomorrow and I am a little nervous. I think Mrs. Cabrera might be thinking of getting a new Instructional Aide. She is keeping me because Anne is going to be out of work in 2 weeks.

Politics

I am thinking of working for a political party this summer and maybe this fall. Of course my natural response would be teh democratic party. However my views are shifting to the right. Sorry syreenne and truesunn. Maybe its the brainwashing at C.B.U. which is one of the most republican colleges in the country? Maybe its Anne who is independent and backing McCain? Maybe its my complete disgust for No Child. Maybe because I believe the government can't help me nor anyone? I have also grown prejudice against Muslims and I apologize for being intolerant, but I have never forgiven them for the horrors I saw in New York in 9-11-01. Worst day of my life. It's not really the people I am prejudice against but the religion. Its a satanic death cult bent on complete destruction of non Muslims and Israel.

People help themselves and not the government. Employers help people the most and helping employers help people. There will always be poor and many are disabled and I wonder if supporting McCain or being a republican will negatively effect them?

I want to be democratic and vote for Obama because I was raised a democrat. Its almost who I am but I feel they are pro abortion, negative, and economically incorrect. Bill Clinton I admired because he supported free trade and had a policy of fiscal responsibility. He lowered interest rates by paying the debt which created a surplus of money of borrowing to help the .com and economic boom of the 1990's.

Ok George Bush Sr started this policy as well but Clinton accelerated it. I give credit to both. I miss those days.

So where does that leave me? If I join http://www.democraticgain.org/jobboard/jobseekers/volunteer.php I will probably butt heads whenever free trade or economic issues pop up.

Also I wonder if my political science professor has ties to key republican candidates and organizations? I can give them about 40 hours a week this summer but this fall my time will be much more limited.

I am a business administration major so I should want to work in an office. Politics fascinate me but I just can't commit to either party because I am fickle or whatever my wife and exgfs like to say.

jobs

I can not find any office jobs at all. I found a warehouse job at Chrysler and I would be irresponsible not to apply. I feel it would not be a secure job at the way the company is going but I suppose its a start. My brother works at Fedex and I thought about applying if I could lift more than 100 pounds. Its that or KFC down the street which doesn't pay the bills. I am going to apply and keep checking Monster.com everyday. Its time I focus on my career so when I obtain my degree next year I can have experience to back me up.

School

Foreign languages suck! I am taking ASL which supposed to be much easier but I have only been getting B+'s on tests. Actually I counted to 20 in ASL (poorly) with have credit to a 90. My political science class is all essay and I need to catch up on reading.

marriage

Anne is a busy bee and I am so proud of her! :-)

Poor thing is getting her master's now and she also works and is a full time mom. I drop my hat off to all the full time working parents out there. I try to clean and do laundry but she can always finish it and be very efficient.

She plays wow for a few minutes a day and I bought the L Word DVD set for her. :-) I think I am going to watch a few episodes of that or QAF. She has not leveled her priest yet either at Warsong Gulch which is the daily pvp today so I may do that.


Busy Bee's we are and if anyone actually still read's this blog ttfn

Oh and for the very politically incorrect video site of the day :-)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vb3IMTJjzfo

I have just finished watching Mr. Holland’s Opus. I need to watch several movies of deaf culture for my papers in my American Sign Language class. It was a great movie and my wife told me it was sweet and I would love it.

My verdict? It was sad and a little depressing.
The man had a dream to be a composer and he never achieved it. Life got in the way and he hated his job as a teacher. I asked Anne if she thought he was happy. Especially towards the end when he fought the school district to not get rid of the music program at school.

I liked Pursuit of Happyness (intentionally misspelled) where he told his son if he had a dream that he needs to protect it.

In 1965, Mr. Holland had a choice to go to L.A. to be a professional musician but decided to be a music teacher for 4 years until he had enough money to compose full time. Maybe he was too afraid to take risks? He assumed he would have time for himself so he could focus on what he loves best which is to make great music.

Instead, life gets in the way and he is forced to work on after school activities, lesson plans, and grading papers while he looked at his piano with a case of envy. Then his wife is pregnant and his dreams of becoming a composer are shattered as are his wife’s dream of becoming a photographer which drives the final nail in the coffin for Mr. Holland.
He has to keep his job because he now has a house and a kid to pay for. Worse, his child is deaf and needs expensive education at a special school. He takes on two jobs and his wife gets angry with him whenever he tries to do what he feels God has sent him out to do which is to be a composer.

From 1965- 1980 he still has this dream to be a composer until he eventually gives up. His wife wants time to spend for his son’s activities and her and he realizes he is now getting too old like the song Time by Pink Floyd. The real question is does he enjoy being a teacher by this time? If so then perhaps God’s plan for him was to teach all along. During this time, a young student offers a chance for him to leave his wife and family and start over in New York to live his dream. He loves his family and decides to give it up at this cost.

He finally was able to hear his master symphony that he worked on for years in 1995 when he was forced to retire due to budget cuts. He had his formal classmates play his song that never came to be.

I suppose I see it as a parallel to my own life in some ways. Part of me wants to write my next killer software app on Linux and Windows. Is it really in my cards at this point having big bills with a wife and kids? I am going to say no at this point but I am not bitter.
Anne told me she felt guilty pushing me into my job that can be stressful with complicated legal situations and stress at the school district. I told her it’s the best non professional job I could have. I am not locked in yet but am getting close. I told her I would be working for a shittier company being paid half of my salary so yes I will take it with a smile!
The question is what do I do after I get my degree? Mr. Holland was a coward not to take a risk before he had a family. I will not let the same mistake happen and it was a big risk coming here to California. I am much happier than staying at home in Florida with no future filled with misery.
I am thinking though that programming is not where I belong. I told myself at 16 that I could be either a meteorologist, computer professional, or a business man. I am aiming at the last thing now as I mature. True hackers always program and I never do. Maybe its not in my cards but I am heading somewhere and will never give up.
Most people live under $800 a day and never do what they like and with children deciding what I would like to do is selfish. The good news is I get paid so little now that I can still have the opportunity in the future.

What!?

Die hard liberal sinistertim becoming republican?

I flirted with conservatism back in 2000 with Bush (shudder). I felt the impeachment scandal that was happening with Clinton would continue with Gore (guilt by association). I wanted a new direction with all this new wealth and a great economy with a bright warfree future.

My oh my how things have changed in only 8 years.

I can not longer get an I.T. job as they are done in India thanks to NAFTA. There are more Mexicans than white people at the school I work for thanks to open borders. I need to speak spanish to do my job more efficiently. Anne lost her job because of a loss of tax revenue. Her district is filled with illegal aliens who do not pay taxes who then send their kids to her school.

Regardless of all these things I have changed as well as my country.

I no longer think the government is going to take care of me. I am alone on this world and have lost faith in the democratic party.

I have to do things myself and not be reliant on the government. My wife and I are on my own and yes disabled and disadvantaged people will live in poverty and misery. Can we help? No. I want to save the world but the only thing that can help these people is an economy with little regulation. The poor and disabled are more prone to economic instability because of the supply verses demand curve.

Economics courses I have taken back in Florida started to change my opinion. As I became aware of how big business runs this country I eventually learned.

Also let me tell you a secret

I hate hilary clinton

I mean really dislike her. She is dishonest and I do not even know what she stands for. It seems she asks her advisers instead of her own convictions on her platform and what she stands for. Is she for NAFTA or agaisnt it?

The only reason anyone would support her is because of her husband. Like that is going to qualify her? Oh please?

My wife has a credentialed 4 year degree in teaching and a masters. (ok. Well almost). She has risen math test scores by 20% this year at Ramona highschool. Does this mean I should be a teacher?

After all my wife is a great teacher so that means I am qualified and entitled to a teaching position! .... yawn.

I agree with Bill Richardson (former secretary of Energy under the Clinton administration) that Hillary believes she is entitled to the presidency. HE betrayed her and supported Obama for this reason. The job was too important.

At this point I like NAFTA as it brings the cost of goods down and creates more white collar jobs than takes away blue collar. It saves me money to buy on more goods.

Obama

I was hoping he would win. Folks? After the Wright scandal that Hilary Clinton and Shawn Hannity created I will say this mad woman is destroying her own party and tipping it to McCain. She is all ego and is scarier than her husband.

I do not know if I can actually vote republican. I would feel guilty being raised a democrat but I will in no way vote for Hilary and I may or may not vote for Obama. ..ok I can't vote for him either if he goes to a church with sermons on hating America.

I just want a protest vote and maybe conservative ideals might be the best policy to move forward. Its about myself and my wife making us a future and not some government program. The private sector is society rather than the government. I have come to that conclusion.

I was going to write a poll asking if everyone here thought I was crazy but my account expired. .. shrugs shoulders.

After all these years they finally got back together to write a new album.

Here is one of hte premiere video's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6MUOtFtgwQ

Here is my mage http://www.wowarmory.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Azjol-Nerub&n=Sinetheo

... and here is where I ought to be

http://armory.worldofwarcraft.com/character-sheet.xml?r=Tichondrius&n=Cyndera

I have only 5,800 health? No resilience? and 20 stamina?

I need 9,000 health, 200+ resilience and 100+ stamina.

No wonder I die in 1 hit!

Good god am I a born again noob due to my lack of time to play. Sigh... I suppose I will should just let Anne finish him like she normally does.